Living in purpose with Dee’s Dynamics: What I’ve learnt about ‘reset before excel’.
I feel no way in sharing that mentally this has been THEE hardest year of my life to date. Every time I’ve felt as though I’m ‘ok’ the negative feelings have later reemerged with greater severity.
We all know that you can’t win if you ain’t right within (word to Ms Lauryn), so it was foolish of me to try and bypass my intuition. Many of us do it though. You tell yourself ‘If I just push til…’, ‘If I can hold on until’. You have gotta be so careful in discerning when to push harder and when to hit reset, cause that same button you’re pushing in hopes of it progressing you to the next level can be the exact one that causes the entire system to malfunction.
Knowing when and how to pause and reset is difficult for so many reasons. Not as many people share their experiences around taking time to just do whatever and recenter themselves as those who scream from the rooftops about how ‘the grind never stops’. That’s one of the lessons I’m learning in choosing to attain a more ‘purposeful’ life. Sometimes I’m so caught up with goals and so deeply driven by my ‘why’s’ that I’m just constantly pushing onwards without a moment to effectively check-in.
I can literally feel the butterflies, the tingly sensation throughout my body that I get when good things are on the horizon and have been feeling this way for quite some time. But I thought that to push me over the verge into the next chapter and turn these butterflies into manifestations I had to go harder. In actual fact I have been called to do the opposite, to rest! I described this period of my life to a friend the other day as my catapult moment. God is pulling my behind back a little… right before casting me into the next stage of my destiny. In finally giving in to the cries of my intuition and switching gears I am recognising how useful it is to take a breather and actually look at the land you’ve already tread before stepping into new terrain.
I am no longer forcing myself to keep going out of fear that if I don’t hurry up I may miss my opportunity for success… how very irrational. I preach constantly about believing what’s for me won’t miss me. So in order to practice that I’m choosing to embody it too. For me, that looks like being more present. Myself and others my age (probably younger and older too) apply way too much pressure on ourselves to acquire success. I also believe that you can’t rush forever. I don’t know about you but my success is due to be long lasting and unwavering IJN. For that reason, I’m aware that I have to take a little longer in the preparation stages.
Enough about me…If your life right now feels like you’re constantly pushing against the tide, like your efforts just aren’t equating to results that make sense, then please take this as your reminder to hop out of the sea real quick. To allow the suns rays to dry you, maybe even take in the views a little and when you’ve fully recovered from being seasick you can begin to re-enter the abyss.
Despite what you may be telling yourself, there is truly no shame in that. A true captain knows that it is nobler to postpone the journey than to set sail when they know the weather conditions are not permitting, just so that they can say they have ‘sailed’!
Dee x
